I wish I could say it to you

They say Silence is Golden. Not always, surely! I was silent today, as I have been a few times before, and it was devastating!

I am not feeling good today. I wish it would have blossomed to something better. It didn't, may be it was not supposed to. Still, things would have been different, hopefully better, had it been the opposite of what happened.

Someone feels I don't say things face to face, I hide them and say them over the phone or text. Yes, I do. May be I am not able to express myself the way I should when in person.

Something has ended today and somewhere I think it has ended for good. I am not at all feeling good about it. But what troubles me more is the fact that I can't say this to that person! I've hurt and troubled that person very much. Today, was perhaps the last day I did it again! I would be lying if I say that every time I did something bad to that person, I felt bad as well. But this time, it's different. I am not liking it. I wish I can call up and say this but I shall not. Don't wanna hurt no more. Don't wanna raise any more hopes.

I am sorry. It's not your fault. I really, really wish you to be happy, always.

love...